Emma and Lily were born a month early and that means they were super little when they arrived. They couldn't keep their sugar level normal and could not breastfeed. The Dr at the hospital told us they must go to the NCU2 to gain weight and learn how to eat. Which also means we are not able to take them home. That is the worse feeling in the world to leave the hospital and not take your babies with you. The nurses were amazing and let us come see them anytime we wanted. Even if we wanted to come at 2 in the morning ( we didn't go then). I would go everyday twice a day. The Dr told us in order for the babies to develop we must let them sleep and not pick them up that much which means we could only hold them for 1 hour every visit. Its kinda funny I am sitting here writing this remembering what I felt and I am starting to cry. I would never wish that on my worst enemy. Well day after day I would come in and try to get them to breastfeed. Their mouths were so small it was not working and they were not progressing. Plus I would have to go home and pump 10 times a day with equals out to every 2 hours. Then one day a nurse recommends a bottle. She the bottle is easy for babies and that it might get them to eat on their own. The draw back is that I would feed than pump than feed and pump. Nick was really not wanting to do that but I was sick of leaving my babies there. Oh did I mention it was 30 mins one way to get there? Well I thought and prayed about it and we both decided to do it. 5 days later they were out of the hospital. To all the ladies who criticize me to my face and behind my back for bottle feeding I hope you read this and understand and feel a little stupid because you had no idea what I was going through. Sunday September 11th the babies came home!!! Here are some pictures
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